Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Connected to whom??

Not much to report.. It has been a slow week. And I am very happy for that.
So I have been pondering a feel things in my head and I thought I would share them..

First, how can you feel so connected to someone for a while and than all of a sudden not even feel like they even care about you? Is this even possible? Maybe it is because they have moved on with there life and are busy or is it that I have moved on? I wish I could answer these questions but I can't. I try to figure it out but the more I think about the more I don't understand. I haven't listen to God about this, so I have no idea if he is even trying to tell me anything. I am so wrapped up in not been connected to these persons that I can't anything around me. How so I stop this? Take a time out from everything and just listen and pray, is that the answer? Or maybe I am being selfish and want them to make me a part of there life? But that isn't possible because they don't live here. Or maybe I am over reacting, and our connection hasn't changed. But as I sit here I am thinking that if I am so worried about my connection with friends, what is my connection with God like? hmmm.. The more I type that more I am thinking that I need to work on me and God ... My journey... It is amazing to me that when I starting typing everything is made so clear to me.. Is it God telling me to stop and work on what is important... ME....

So if I have confused any of you sorry.. But I now understand better what I need to do.. Thanks for reading.. Comments are always welcome...