Signs..

I am happy to report that I am single . Not dating a soul. God blessed me in ways I can't even begin to talk about. I know that when the right man comes along God will make it clear to me that he is the one. I thought God had done that with this guy, but i was wrong on so many levels. I started feeling as though this wasn't right about a week ago when God showed me the first sign of this not working. And i questioned it because i wanted it so bad, but God kept given me reasons not to move, not to continue this relationship. I didn't want to believe God, I was right and he was wrong. But God never stopped showing me signs, and though my heart was hurting and I was upset I knew what i had to do. And so I ended the relationship, it was hard, it was a lot of praying, crying, unsure of what to say, to let God give me words. I did it.. it was hard.. I hated every second of it, because i wanted it so badly. I had to listen to God he is in control. I am still not 100% sure i did the right thing, but God is showing me that i did. I am slowly looking at the bigger picture God is giving me. There were a lot of things that needed to be taken care of before i could move. And one of them was/is getting my divorce over, how can i move when i am still legally married. And how could i move known that my son's well being needed to be taken care of. My son has had a tough year, and putting him in a place where he didn't know anyone that well but me was another sign. My son is my life and I couldn't let his well being come before anything, not even a man. I can't in good faith move my son 2 months into the school year when my divorce is over. Not fair to his education. I only what is best for my son, and not moving in the middle of a semester is best. I could go on and on about that signs God showed me, but when you look at it, it was God controlling my life.. Telling me what was right what i needed to do. Yes, i am hurting still . Will i move on.. Yes i believe I will. Have i learned from this. Yep i sure have. I can't let any man or person come in front of the only child i have. The only child that God has blessed me with. My son means the world to me. His happiness is everything.
So the signs God shows you when you are wondering.. Look at them listen to them.. God knows what is right, give God control. Let him lead you, after all God is the one you created you, he is the one who knows best.
And as to my best friend... yes he is a male, God has put him in my life for a reason I don't know, am I happy about it yes. Confused yes wondering what God is doing YEP. But the only thing I can to is let God lead me.. whatever happens is because its of God and not me. I am blessed to have friends who know that when i let God lead me my life is at its best. So try.. let God lead you .. give God control.. listen to him.. love him. God will never ever let you down.. Life is simply to short not to be happy and full of Gods grace!!

Prayer

Today in Sunday School we talked about prayer. I wish we had more time to talk about it. I love just to talk about how others pray and what they pray about. How do you pray? what do you pray about? Do you pray differently for non- Christians? When you pray do you always ask and never thank?

People pray in different ways, forms, times of day. I thought I would share how I pray and when I pray. When I pray I normally do in my car cause that seems to work for me. Somedays though i talk to God all day. I love to just tell God whats on my mind even though I know he knows, it makes me feel. I wonder if some days he says, Marianne really could you just stop long enough for me to answer just one thing. I sometimes have a hard time listening to God, because i think what I have to say is far more important then what God has to say. Then there are days that i listen. I open my eyes more look around more. God answers prayers in ways that you may not even know he can. When I pray/talk to God sometimes I do nothing but ask for this or that. God can you help me with this, God i don't get this. And I never thank God for what he has done for me, his unconditional love for me, for everything in my life. I am far from good at prayer, but I k now God doesn't care if it is pretty, or worded right. All he cares about is if you are trusting him letting him control your life. There have been times in my life where I have wanted the control and have taken ( or at least i have taken it) and i have stopped talking to God and doing what ever i felt like. Then when things don't go as planned i blame God because after all he is control of me. But that isn't the case at all it that i didn't trust him enough to give up the control to him. In the last few months I have given God control and have let him lead me. Have i asked questions of God, have i wondered if letting God control my life plan, have i been unsure of what will happen next. YES I have, but it has done something to me it has made me look at what is going on around me. I am so truly blessed with a family that loves me no matter how upset they or I make them. They have got my back and are willing at a moments notice to pick up the pieces and help me put them back together. I have a son who with out a question loves me, and is the most important person in my life right next to God. I have a wonderful church family who supports me and loves me as I am no matter my faults. I have friends who support me and only want the best for me. I amazing man in my life that understands that i am not perfect and my life hasn't been easy, and wants to love me like i should be loved. And his wonderful family who have blessed me and supported me from day one! I am so blessed to have some any in my life. I know that God is in control and I am going to thank him each and everyday for all he has given me will give and has done for me. I may ask and ask when i pray, but now i am going to thank God. I love when my relationship grows with God it makes me want to dive in and soak up every word he is saying to. I want to live like he wants me to live. I am blessed and have never felt like i am going the right direction. But I feel i am moving up that big mountain coming out of a deep valley. Praising and Thanking God each and every step. Thank you God for teaching me that given you control and trusting you makes life so much more sweeter..