Saturday, January 01, 2011

The Break up story.......

So first let me give you all a little back round.. some history... with out given to much of his personal life away...
So things haven't been going as smooth as they could have been the last week or so. We had all but stopped talking to each other starting about Sunday night. Things didn't change over the next couple days so I told him that we needed to talk because I couldn't take it anymore. And so we talked for a min or two the first time. He got mad and left my room. So i thought OK give him some time. Then next night I sent him a message on face book saying we must talk before you go to work. so we did I told him how i was feeling about things and that I didn't like that i was walking on eggshells in my own house. We decided that he should leave for a while so that we could have some time away. Sounded like a good plan to me. He said that he was going home to take care of some issues that he never dealt with. I thought that was a great idea that way he could close that chapter of his life and start a new one. Speed up to yesterday morning.... I get up and take him to Indy so that he could get on a greyhound and go "home" because that is where he told me he was going. On the way down we talked about him coming back in a couple weeks to visit and talked about me going down and visiting him. Sounds good huh? We got to the bust station and he said i don't want you to come in it is just going to make it harder on us. I agreed with him, because i was holding back tears as it was. So we said our goodbyes in the parking lot he hugged me and kissed me and said I love you and I will call you or contact you some how when i get "home". He called me on my way home, we talked for a few a bit and he said to me again that he loved me and would see me in a few weeks. ... OK fast forward to last night (Friday) night. I logged into face book checking things out talking to a friend. Then I decided that I would check my profile page, and noticed that his name was gone and that the relationship status said in a relationship... I thought what is going on.. so I did a search for him thinking maybe he just befriended me because he wanted some space.. so when the search came up as nothing.. I was in shock... He has blocked me for his page!!! I was shocked and dumbfounded!!! I asked my friend to do a search also and he came up with nothing.. so then OK maybe he just deleted his face book.. then i got a bright idea... so this might get confusing sorry.. so I had my friend do a search for one of his friends and look and see if he was on her page.. make sense.. good.. and he was on her friends list.. that is when it really hit me that he had blocked me!!! SO still in shock.. my shock turned in to being pissed.. my friend was shocked to and couldn't believe that this is how he would tell me it was over .. I have never in my life been so shocked and pissed about something .. Yes my heart hurts, but I believe that he didn't go home like he said he was, but went to be with this woman friend of his. Now I don't know if that is the truth or not, but why would you block someone you are dating even if you are taking a break?!?!?! It doesn't make sense to do that to me. SO I took this as he was breaking up with me.. I wish i had the answers as to why he did this way.. or why didn't he just say to me.. I want to break up I don't think this will work out. That seems easier to me then to block me... but maybe this is his way of dealing with things is to run from it.. i don't know.. so there is the break up story for the records... thanks for you love and support!!!

2 comments:

Annette Deardurff said...

Sorry about this for you - sometimes when people are ashamed, afraid to face you it is easier to break up indirectly rather than face to face. You certainly deserved better that is certain - my personal feeling is that you will find someone much better for you who will be MUCH better TO you. When I met him the day you came out to Burberry I did not have a good feeling about him - couldnt put my finger right on it but..... You WILL be ok - Take care of you and your little man - you know he is your first priority. Annette Deardurff

Anonymous said...

That really sucks, I wonder if he thought he could get away with deleting you and blocking you without you noticing, so that if things didn't work out with his "friend" than he could go back to you. If thats the case than hes a total loser. If you ever need someone to talk to than u can always text me. I hope that your new yr is filled with joy, happiness and that you find someone that is deserving of your love. Take care ttyl
~April~